Sab khatam ho gaya 😭

 Hi Vedika,

I don't know what I am doing, I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I want u to be there for me.

I am feeling very lonely and incomplete from 4 days. I am getting mad to talk with u but I am controlling. It's very difficult for me to not talk with u. 

U know no girl is there in my life except u, u were my everything. I don't want anyone except u. But I know I am not good for u. I do interfere in ur life, I am too possessive, I think about u a lot.

And the main thing u deserve a better friend than me. Sorry, but I failed to understand u.

Yaar I am dying to talk with you.

Kaash tu saamne se msg kar de. But still, u deserve a better best friend than me. U know I am good at nothing. Not in friendship, not in studies, not in career, not in taking responsibilities, not in anything yaar. I am a loser and I deserve this.

All I wanted is that u stay happy. May u get a better friend than me. I thought u got one Fatima Rizvi right. I wish tu usko ache se sab share kare jese meko karti thi. I wish vo meri tarah Acha, Haa, Hmm nahi kare. I wish ke teko koi acha best friend bhi mil jaaye. I wish ki tere ghr mein sab acha ho. And abhi kuch months mein bhai ki shadi hai, ache se enjoy karna. And, I wish tu hamesha khush rahe.

I broke my promise this time. I am sorry. I know sorry isn't enough what I did with u.

I am a too bad person, From the beginning, I disturbed u and ur daily routine, u remember in the starting Ritu di ka phone khrab tha toh vo office se aati thi and then at 8.30 pm we used to talk on insta. And i was waiting from morning to talk with u. From there it all started, I got used to it to wait for ur msg. 

And then we got more closer, then I done another mistake, I asked ur number. And then we started talking on Whatsapp. Ab mein teko whatsapp pe bhi pareshaan karne laga tha. And then we used to talk and do mischievous things like #hashtags, STD, Stickers, Harshita ke saath masti karna, Games khelna and bht kuch yaar. And then ho gyi ek aur galti jo ki bht badi galti hai, I started generating feelings for u.

U know in the start all were doubting me ke ek din mein teko propose karunga yaa meko feelings aayegi tere liye. But I denied everything. And sach mein tab nhi tha kuch.

After a year or so I started feeling for u, all I wanted was to talk with u, even if I don't have anything to talk i used to wait for u and just listen to u bas yhi chaiye tha ke tu mere se baat kare. And then time nikalta gaya, I started going to office and still I reply u when I am able to. U know ek baar toh sir piche khade the mere and tere chats open the and I replied u. Mein bht darr gya tha fir.

Sry mein pata nhi kya kya bolne laga. So then I used to wait for u at night. teko jyada time nhi milta tha and mein bas tere pe doubt karta tha. U know I feel I was lucky to have u in my life.

Kya karu yaar mein ab feelings aane lagi toh. I used to control but nhi ho pata tha. I used to see ur pics every day yaar. Even in midnights, I used to open my phone's gallery and just see u. 

I am too bad person, i dont know tu kya sochti rahegi mere baare mein. 

Sorry for everything I did.

Thank you for everything you did.

 

Still, I am dying to talk with u.

One more thing, i am not going to share this blog link with u, but if u r reading this by self navigating to my blog then please please comment down something. So meko pata chale ke u read it.

Bye-bye (C ya)

stay happy and keep smiling

U will be remembered every day in my life.