Rohan's Daily Blogs

I'm ugly. I'm fat. I'm a failure. I'm depressed. I'm suffering. I hate this world. I hate myself. I'm imperfect. I'm good at nothing. I'm disgusting. I'm just fucked up.

 Hi Vedika, I don't know what I am doing, I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I want u to be there for me. I am feeling very lonely and incomplete from 4 days. I am getting mad to talk with u but I am controlling. It's very difficult for me to not talk with u.  U know no girl is there in my life except u, u were my everything. I don't want anyone except u. But I know I am not good for u. I do interfere in ur life, I am too possessive, I think about u a lot. And the main thing u deserve a better friend than me. Sorry, but I failed to understand u. Yaar I am dying to talk with you. Kaash tu saamne se msg kar de. But still, u deserve a better best friend than me. U know I am good at nothing. Not in friendship, not in studies, not in career, not in taking responsibilities, not in anything yaar. I am a loser and I deserve this. All I wanted is that u stay happy. May u get a better friend than me. I thought u got one Fatima Rizvi right. I wish tu usko ache se sab shar...

  ONE DAY One day you will realize how much I cared for you One day you will realize how much you mean to me One day you will realize how much important you are to me One day you will realize how much time I gave you One day you will realize how much I think about you just to make you happy One day you will realize how much effort I gave just to talk with you One day you will realize how many nights I awaken for you One day you will realize how much I cried for you One day you will realize how many risks I have faced just to talk with you One day you will realize how many lies I told to everyone just to talk with you One day you will realize how many problems I have faced just to talk with you One day you will realize how much I waited for your messages One day you will realize how much angerness I did to my brother at night just to talk with you One day you will realize how much I gave effort just to make you smile One day you will realize how much stress and tension I had regardi...

Losing my BFF - 9th May 2021 I don't know what to write, but still, I am writing. Vedika... She's an amazing person, she is my first friend(girl), my favorite person, a special person and much more which I can't explain. We met on 16th April 2020 just by dare, she replied to my story, and here we are "Best Friends Forever". But that's not true now I can't even feel that she is my BFF, because previously she was way different from now, she used to care about me, she used to do many mischievous things with me, she used to interfere in everything and she used to make me laugh, make me feel happy and special. But now that's not the case, now she's completely changed... rarely she do the above things now... I don't know why she changed... maybe I am too much interfering in her life. Maybe she doesn't want our bond to remain like this. Maybe I hurt her, or maybe she's irritated with me. I don't know. I just don't know what happened to...

My Overthinking is getting worse now - 13 April 2021 Hello, I am here after so long... this is my first blog in 2021.  So, I am giving you a small life update... I joined Softvan Pvt. Ltd. as a trainee/intern for 6 months from 22 March 2021, then after 6 months... I will be doing a full-time job as a Full Stack Developer. I learned some topics in java first then I learned React JS. Now I am building www.softvan.in website just for my practice in react and reactstrap. So yes professional life is started and I am enjoying it.  If you read my previous blog, it was about my first crush. So now she knows that she was my crush. Actually, my BFF messaged her first. And then I was having no option... so I told her everything. So now coming to the topic of the blog... From the past couple of months, my bestie is too busy with their work, so I feel very bad when she isn't coming online and chat with me. So this was happening from a couple of months and on 12 March 2021(night), I told he...

Jab mein 10th std. mein tha tab kuch hua tha. And uski vajah se mein ladkiyo se darne laga tha. So 10th, 11th, 12th, clg 1st year, 2nd year ese hi nikla without ladkiyo se baat kare. And jab mein 2nd yr mein tha tab mujhe ek ladki dikhi clg bus parking mein. And at the first sight mein usko like karne lag gya. Koshish ki naam jaan neki par kar nahi paya. So ab aagya 3rd year and mein ese hi insta scroll kar rha tha suddenly mujhe suggestion mein vo ladki ka pic dikha, and mein pehli nazar mein hi pehchan gaya. Fir usko request bheji and accept bhi kari usne. Then mene msg kiya konse department mein ho? She said IT engineering. So vo meri junior hui, and mene aur mere frnd ne milke ek plan banaya usse baat and friendship karne ke liye.  Mene usko msg kiya I have all the books of 3rd sem so if you or anyone wants do tell me. Fir usne bola I want them. Then I asked kab milke du books. She said tuesday. I was too much happy bcz she was the first girl i liked in my entire life. So we me...