Story of my first crush

Jab mein 10th std. mein tha tab kuch hua tha. And uski vajah se mein ladkiyo se darne laga tha. So 10th, 11th, 12th, clg 1st year, 2nd year ese hi nikla without ladkiyo se baat kare. And jab mein 2nd yr mein tha tab mujhe ek ladki dikhi clg bus parking mein. And at the first sight mein usko like karne lag gya. Koshish ki naam jaan neki par kar nahi paya. So ab aagya 3rd year and mein ese hi insta scroll kar rha tha suddenly mujhe suggestion mein vo ladki ka pic dikha, and mein pehli nazar mein hi pehchan gaya. Fir usko request bheji and accept bhi kari usne. Then mene msg kiya konse department mein ho? She said IT engineering. So vo meri junior hui, and mene aur mere frnd ne milke ek plan banaya usse baat and friendship karne ke liye. 

Mene usko msg kiya I have all the books of 3rd sem so if you or anyone wants do tell me. Fir usne bola I want them. Then I asked kab milke du books. She said tuesday. I was too much happy bcz she was the first girl i liked in my entire life. So we met on 25th june 2019 11:02 AM opposite bus parking. And i gave her books. And oh my god her smile killed me literally. Still if i think about that moment i get goosebumps. And fir vo jaha jaha beth ti thi vaha mein stalk karne laga tha usko. Uska time table tak ayad ho gya tha mujhe Aur mujhe khud ka tak yaad nahi tha time table.

After that hum thodi thodi baat karte rahe insta pe. And fir firse ek plan banaya. I asked her Do u help me? She said I will try. And I asked... 

I like a girl but i dont know how to tell her my feelings. So will you help me in that case. Toh vo boli bonding kesi hai aapki, mene bola vo toh bht kam hai. She told toh badao. I told how? She told how would i know? I told okay. If a boy proposes you like this so what will be your reply. She told "Let my bf tackle him". Mene bola kon hai she said "Apne clg mein se nahi hai".

I was in in my clg bus and I locked my phone and started crying. I was really hurt. And then she said vo ladki kon hai ? aapke class mein hai? i told nahi. She told then kon hai? I told aapko dikha hi dunga sidha. Toh boli when? mene bola jab aap bolo toh boli monday. I said okay. So mene plan banaya and speech taiyar kari usko impress karne ke liye... Vo speech:-------

The speech that I never said,

Seriously, aap usko dekhne aaye ho jisko mein like karta hu

Aur bhi bahut baate hai karne ko voh karte hai yeh sab toh hota rahega

Mene pta kiya hai ki uska bf hai toh rehne dete hai koi matlab nahi hai ab sirf friends tak hi rakhunga aur kya

Agar phir bhi aapko dekhni hai toh bolo

*Opens front camera*

Yeh hai jisko mein at the first sight like karne laga tha but himmat nahi hui baat karne ki. Tech fest aaya mauka tha baat karne ka but baat kar nahi paaya piche piche ghumta rha but nahi kar saka baat. Phir socha rehne deta hu but yeh dil hai jo maanta hi nahi. Thode din baad aapki insta id suggestions mein aayi, mein face se hi pehchaan gya and req. Bhej di. You know the remaining part.

I really like you 😍

Buttttttttttt Mujhe yeh speech bolne ka mauka hi nahi mila... kyuki on sunday mene usko msg kiya tomorrow same place same time. She said "Arre mein toh mazak kar rahi thi jab GF ban jaaye tab milva dena mujhe"...

Then I thought I should ignore her bcz everytime i think about her and my work will be pending. So mene I started moving on but nahi ho rha tha bilkul bhi. 

Then aaya 29th january 2020 Subah clg gaya mein and ek lecture attend kiya and i was sad at that reason aapko aage pta chalega... So after 1st lecture, Me and my friends bunked next lecture and hum canteen gaye and mein kya dekhta hu waha

She was sitting in left corner with a boy, with their hand in the boy's hand and both were smiling. I looked at her and she also looked at me. then mene muh fer liya like i dont care. And i started telling to my friend "bas yahi reh gaya tha dekhna" and then i looked back after 2-3 minutes. Dono log vaha se gayab the...

An you know uss din mera birthday tha. Subah se kisi ne mujhe wish nahi kiya tha ek toh isliye pehle hi mood off saa tha, then mene yeh sab dekh liya... I was upset and depressed, then yeh heart.touching.thoughts ko dusra janam mila. I started writing quotes dedicating to her. 

That was the story...

Aage bhi baat hui thi par batane ka mtlb nahi hai... That's it.. bye