My Overthinking is getting worse now - 13 April 2021

My Overthinking is getting worse now - 13 April 2021


Hello, I am here after so long... this is my first blog in 2021. 

So, I am giving you a small life update...

I joined Softvan Pvt. Ltd. as a trainee/intern for 6 months from 22 March 2021, then after 6 months... I will be doing a full-time job as a Full Stack Developer.

I learned some topics in java first then I learned React JS. Now I am building www.softvan.in website just for my practice in react and reactstrap.

So yes professional life is started and I am enjoying it. 


If you read my previous blog, it was about my first crush. So now she knows that she was my crush. Actually, my BFF messaged her first. And then I was having no option... so I told her everything.


So now coming to the topic of the blog...

From the past couple of months, my bestie is too busy with their work, so I feel very bad when she isn't coming online and chat with me. So this was happening from a couple of months and on 12 March 2021(night), I told her everything that I feel very bad. And also blamed her that she is not coming online intentionally, she doesn't take out time for me, and many things because I was hurt tbh.

But I was wrong, I should understand that there are things beyond chats, she must be genuinely busy because there were guests in her house so she must be busy with household work. But I blamed her for no reason. It was my overthinking... nothing else.

Now I am already feeling very guilty about that. I told her sorry many times, she has forgiven me too. But still, I feel guilty and regretting. 

She is very good and she understands things so she forgave me. 

Now, whenever I chat with her, I feel guilty and I am not able to say anything to her because I do overthink a lot. Today she was asking me what happened why are you behaving like this, Tell me. So I told her and now I am again writing a blog about it also. So whenever again I get a thought that she is intentionally not coming online, So I will read this blog. 


I only want that she remain with me forever, with the same importance, same priority, and same bonding.

I am sorry veduu 


Thank You if you reading the blog till here.

At last, I want to say:

 Every person that comes into your life, has a reason. He/She will teach you something and hence it improves your understanding and intellectual.


Bye 

 

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